Archive for December, 2006

it’s that time of the year again

Sunday, December 31st, 2006

3 EXTREMELY SIMPLE (BUT NOT EASY) THINGS I’LL DO IN 2007

make more mistakes
- i have the tendency to be very unforgiving just because i personally do not even consider doing something that will extremely hurt another person. don’t get me wrong i have my own set of wrongdoings but i think im too much of a wimp to do something really really horrible and i think i need to commit a couple of huge mistakes so i’ll have more reasons to forgive the persons i have wronged me knowing that im no saint either.

drinks lotsa vitamins
-i gained 5lbs in a span of 1 week (95lbs-100lbs!) and i plan to reach about 115 so i won’t look so…anorexic. my eating habits are fine but i think i need more nutrients if i really wanna gain weight and stay away from diseases so hello centrum!

close chapters in my seemingly non-existent lovelife
ive had (more than) enough of waiting and wanting and hoping that he’d come to his senses but if by now he still hasn’t realize how much im willing to do just to be with him then i guess i’ll just have to find someone who will right?!  i have a feeling it’ll be this year, that one person who will "get it" and i will be able to say in the eternal words of dave eggers "finally, finally, finally…"

also id like to take this time to thank everyone who has made this year so eventful. family/relatives,  highschool tropa, eggkada, up/commres peeps and everyone else in between, you know who you are!

thank you for teaching me how to love ME.

;-)
kitchie

kayod,kayod,kayod.

Monday, December 25th, 2006

i still have a (slight) hang-over from our yearly christmas party with high school friends yet i am awake, with a troubled stomache and a slight headache beacuse i need to…
work.

don’t get me wrong. of all the jobs i had, i can say this is the one that makes me feel i am helping people/society/filipinos which is one of the most important factors for me in choosing a job. i get to practice what i (think) am good at since i’m the communications officer, plus i get to work with one of my closest college friends. another friend asked me if i am happy with my job and i say "it’s too early to tell.." for now i am just learning the ropes, enjoying what i do and taking it one day at a time.

but like all the things that i like doing, i also get exhausted and become less enthusiastic especially when i feel like my mind and body is telling me to slow down a bit. a sure sign of this is when i start to lose weight and when i can’t finish reading a book because all i want to do during my free time is catch up on much needed sleep. me losing interest in eating and reading means i really must be too tired.   but who says i can’t push that stress threshold a bit further right? and so i begin to do nudge myself a bit more, and a lil bit, and a huge bit…and a couple of lil bits after that and then i feel it, that same sick feeling when i simply had too much to drink and that another gulp would make me throw up..this is when i start saying that two-letter word that i always feel uncomfortable saying whenever a task is handed to me. i just feel bad knowing that i could have, yet i didn’t. i feel guilty because i passed up a certain something just because i felt like i needed to rest. because at the back of my mind, maybe i’m not as tired as i claim to be. let’s face it, i’m still too young and maybe if i take the right kind of vitamins, i wouldn’t feel half as stressed.

other people’s blogs are filled with post/christmas/pre/new year thoughts and yet right now all i can write about is…

work.
 

Oh, the Places You’ll Go!

Saturday, December 23rd, 2006

Congratulations!Today is your day.You're off to Great Places!You're off and away!

You have brains in your head.You have feet in your shoesYou can steer yourselfany direction you choose.You're on your own.  And you know what you know.And YOU  are the guy who'll decide where to go.

You'll look up and down streets.  Look 'em over with care.About some you will say, "I don't choose to go there."With your head full of brains and your shoes full of feet,you're too smart to go down any not-so-good street.

And you may not find anyyou'll want to go down.In that case, of course, you'll head straight out of town.

It's opener therein the wide open air.

Out there things can happenand frequently doto people as brainyand footsy as you.

And when things start to happen,don't worry.  Don't stew.Just go right along.You'll  start happening too.

OH! THE PLACES YOU'LL GO! 

You'll be on your way up!You'll be seeing great sights!You'll join the high flierswho soar to high heights.

You won't lag behind, because you'll have the speed.You'll pass the whole gang and you'll soon take the lead.Wherever you fly, you'll be the best of the best.Wherever you go, you will top all the rest.

Except when you don' tBecause, sometimes, you won't.

I'm sorry to say sobut, sadly, it's trueand Hang-upscan happen to you.

You can get all hung upin a prickle-ly perch.And your gang will fly on.You'll be left in a Lurch.

You'll come down from the Lurchwith an unpleasant bump.And the chances are, then,that you'll be in a Slump.

And when you're in a Slump,you're not in for much fun.Un-slumping yourself is not easily done.

You will come to a place where the streets are not marked.Some windows are lighted.  But mostly they're darked.A place you could sprain both you elbow and chin!Do you dare to stay out?  Do you dare to go in?How much can you lose? How much can you win?

And IF  you go in, should you turn left or right...or right-and-three-quarters? Or, maybe, not quite?Or go around back and sneak in from behind?Simple it's not, I'm afraid you will find,for a mind-maker-upper to make up his mind.

You can get so confusedthat you'll start in to racedown long wiggled roads at a break-necking paceand grind on for miles across weirdish wild space,headed, I fear, toward a most useless place.												The Waiting Place...

...for people just waiting.Waiting for a  train to goor a bus to come, or a plane to goor the mail to come, or the rain to goor the phone to ring, or the snow to snowor waiting around for a Yes or a Noor waiting for their hair to grow.Everyone is just waiting.

Waiting for the fish to biteor waiting for wind to fly a kiteor waiting around for Friday nightor waiting, perhaps, for their Uncle Jakeor a pot to boil, or a Better Breakor a sting of pearls, or a pair of pantsor a wig with curls, or Another Chance.Everyone is just waiting.

NO!That's not for you!

Somehow you'll escapeall that waiting and staying.You'll find the bright placeswhere Boom Bands are playing.

With banner flip-flapping,once more you'll ride high!Ready for anything under the sky.Ready because you're that kind of a guy!

Oh, the places you'll go! There is fun to be done!There are points to be scored.  there are games to be won.And the magical things you can do with that ballwill make you the winning-est winner of all.Fame!  You'll be famous as famous can be,with the whole wide world watching you win on TV.

Except when they don't.Because, sometimes, they won't.

I'm afraid that some  timesyou'll play lonely games too.Games you can't win'cause you'll play against you.

All  Alone!Whether you like it or not,Alone will be somethingyou'll be quite a lot.

And when you're alone, there's a very good chanceyou'll meet things that scare you right out of your pants.There are some, down the road between hither and yon,that can scare you so much you won't want to go on.

But on you will gothough the weather be foulOn you will gothough your enemies prowlOn you will gothough the Hakken-Kraks howlOnward up manya frightening creek, though your arms may get soreand your sneakers may leak.

On and on you will hikeand I know you'll hike farand face up to your problemswhatever they are.

You'll get mixed up, of course, as you already know.You'll get mixed upwith many strange birds as you go.So be sure when you step.Step with care and great tactand remember that Life'sa Great Balancing Act.Just never forget to be dexterous and deft.And never  mix up your right foot with your left.

And will you succeed?Yes! You will, indeed!(98 and 3 / 4 percent guaranteed.)

KID, YOU'LL MOVE MOUNTAINS!

So...be your name Buxbaum or Bixby or Brayor Mordecai Ali Van Allen O'Shea,you're off to Great Places!Today is your day!Your mountain is waiting.So...get on your way!

---Dr. Seuss-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------i remember trisha sending this to the rest of the eggkada...and i think tintin also sent me a copy. i just want to keep this in case i forget (which i tend to often do)especially the part about the waiting place.anyway, i just wanna post this wonderful poem for the people who might need it. :-) 

weird

Monday, December 18th, 2006

90% of my wardrobe is composed of short sleeved tops. but i was wearing a long sleeved pink blazer on my way to the office and this old guy who was sitting beside me did something really perverted that’s too graphic to describe. IN BROAD DAYLIGHT.

i stayed up in the office till well…right now and the air outside is colder than back home. fyi we live 10mins away from tagaytay.

it’s almost christmas and i’ve only been to one christmas party and it wasn’t even our organization’s christmas party because everyone in the office would rather just rest.

i met someone again and though it was expectedly weird it was also unexpectedly nice.

im getting smitten with someone i barely know and with another whom i’ve known for quite sometime now.

my version of i am what i spend (on)

Sunday, December 10th, 2006

1. food (i eat 4-6x a day. do the math)
2. books (i think the more appropriate term is splurge)
3. clothes (office/casual/special occasions)
4. salon services
5. house/transpo
6. friends (get togethers)
7. extrammural classes (french)

yuck. i sound like a geek. id like to put yosi or beer or something that would spell out the rebel in me but i really don’t spend much on those things. my major vice  would have to be pig out sessions…and even that doesn’t make me fat!

check out ina’s and irene’s list.