Kiamoy

an officemate heard me listening to music, jumping from one genre to another (Video Killed the Radio Star to Masquerade of Phantom of the Opera) go figure.

so i tried pandora.com

the first song must be a personal selection so i picked Alanis M and they played Hands Clean. after this they’re supposed to pick another one that i might supposedly like. hmmm. interesting…

they play Two Steps by Gemma Hayes and this is the first time I’ve heard this song and since im more into "lyrics" than the actual melody i googled the lyrics:

Gemma Hayes Two Step
Lyrics

Two steps closer, than i had in mind,
But i am good at the cold shoulder
I lost myself, trying to catch the sun
I gave you everything, left myself with none

Well, i’m living straight now you’re not on my mind
My sweet addiction, always at the side

Stop chasing every little thing that sparks
You’ll carry all you ever need in your heart
Stop chasing every little thing

I’m sorry but i’m restless
The closer it gets, the less i need it
I lost myself trying to catch the sun
Turn the corner, now walk on

Stop chasing every little thing that sparks
You’ll carry all you ever need in your heart
Stop chasing every little thing that sparks
You’ll carry all you ever need in your heart

Oh, wait a minute more
Cos you almost said it out, oh wait a minute more
Cos you almost said it, say it to me now

Stop chasing every little thing that sparks
You’ll carry all you ever need in your heart
Stop chasing every little thing that sparks
You’ll carry all you ever need in your heart

Stop chasing every little thing that sparks
(it always sparkles from a distance)
You’ll carry all you ever need in your heart
(it’ll burn you in an instant)

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the stars are trying to tell me something. cosmic shit, eh?

surreal and not-so-nice. what transpired over the weekend was definitely not a good way to reunite with your old friends but it also felt nice knowing that when push comes  to shove, we were still there for each other. been such a long time since we got together and i’m hoping next time we’ll all be in better and happier places.

Kung Ayaw Mo Na Sa Akin

Gary Granada

 Kung ayaw
mo na sa akin
Wala akong magagawa
Hindi mo na kakailanganing
Magdadalawang salita
Kung ayaw mo na sa akin
Sabihin lang ang totoo
Para minsanan na lang ding
Luluha ang puso ko

Datirati pag ako’y nagkwento
Pumupungay ang iyong mga mata
Ngayo’y kahit original ang jokes ko
Hinding-hindi ka na natatawa
Di na tayo nanonood ng sine
O kaya’y magpusoy-dos man lang
Noo’y gustunggusto mo laging maglibre
Ngayo’y di mo na ako pinauutang

Kung ayaw mo na sa akin…

Wala akong magagawa
Hindi mo na kakailanganing
Magdadalawang salita
Kung ayaw mo na sa akin
Sabihin lang ang totoo
Para minsanan na lang ding
Luluha ang puso ko

Di mo na ako kinakausap
Di mo na ako inaakbayan
Namimiss ko na ang iyong mga yakap
Di mo na ako hinahalikan
Di ka na sumisipot sa usapan
Parang di mo na ako mahal
Di mo man lang yata nabalitaang
Kalalabas ko lang sa ospital

Nakita kita kahapon
May kaholding-hands ka pa
Gaya rin natin noon
Nag-uumapaw ang saya
Tila napaibig ka na rin
Sa matangkad mong kasama
Di mo na napapansing
Mas guwapo ako sinta

Ngunit, kung ayaw mo na sa akin…

Kung ayaw
mo na sa akin
Masakit man ang totoo
Kung talagang ayaw mo na sa akin
Ayaw ko na rin sa iyo!

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What happened between us was eons ago and yet I still felt
like hell when
I found out. So that was the person behind the ‘I need to focus on my work’
excuse. It would have been way cooler if you told me outright. 
You should’ve known I’m woman enough to handle the truth, no matter
how harsh. But then again, why exert the extra effort right? After all, I
was only your meantime girl. The girl you hook up with before you met
‘the one’. I could curse the depths of your soul for treating me that way but
then again, it was partly my fault. I should have seen it coming
(pun  intended). Maybe I was too vulnerable that time to notice that you
were just not that into me but thank you anyway for setting the record
straight. And maybe I’m on the losing side this time but I know I’ll be ok
knowing that I’ve  already swallowed the bitter pill and it won’t be long
till I taste the overwhelming sweetness of the truth.

bumabaha ng gagawin at syempre taranta na naman ako.pero ang nasa isip ko ay…

beach.galera.bora.mikail.gabby.the laderas.videoke.strapless bra ng wacoal.chock kiss.iPOD.alak,alak,at alak pa.white o brown bikini.wax.kalandian.graduation.denise.jino.mika.je.newyork.ikaw.sya.tayo.ako…

antagal ko nang hindi kumakain ng kiamoy

i have dz gurl dt i rli lyk bt she wont go out with me na kaming 2 lng, kung wd ka sna hehe bt i know that’s not an option 4u na sumama nagbka-sakali lang ako. hehe thankz eniwiez…happy valentine’s day kitch! (feb 14)

sms msg i got from one of my best guy friends. nampotah, inassume agad na wala akong gagawin nung vday! in fairness, tama naman sya. pero kahit na im  much too young to be a chaperone!

kitchie_11:
minsan kasi napapaisip rin ako…kelangan ba talaga i am ABSOLUTELY SURE that
this is what i want? sabi nga ni Sting: Maybe risk is destiny

mesinahusain: exactly, in my almost 40 years of experience (yikes!), there’s
nothing you can be absolutely sure of, and most things in life, you cannot
really really 100% plan for… i am personally not risk-aversed … but then
that ’s me…ika nga ni steve winwood, "while there is time, let’s go out
and do everything" - tha’t smy credo
 

mesinahusain: at sabi naman ni beyonce, "to the left, to the left" ha ha

wacky meebo conversation with tita bon. i wish i can decide once and for all what the heck im gonna do with my life or at least a few years of it.

lean: oist. gcng kp?
morning after…
kitch: o bat ka ngtext kanina?
lean: bakit masama ka bang mamiss?
kitch: ng 1am ng umaga? aww…narinig mo yung don’t tell your girlfriend noh!
lean: feeling ka talaga

we will always have these kind of inside jokes to remind us that we are, first and foremost, long term liabilites to each other.

yeah im not part of the them anymore. but knowing that our team got dissolved totally broke my heart. we were such a unique group, composed of really quirky personalities. i will forever remember the early morning videos, the 2week long of youtube-ing , and of course, the stuff we wrote about. oh boy…if they only KNEW.hehe.

to rhae, gil, tina, enna, edce, kuya ed, paeng, chris, hannah, renzy, paengster, rene,  chicko and rosch…HIT ME UP BABY!

nung linggo umatake nanaman yung pagiging pasaway ko. gusto kong magpakarebelde at gumawa ng isang bagay na "hindi dapat". dalawa lang ang naisip kong gawin..magyosi o kamustahin *kita

syempre yosi na lang ang pinili ko. isang marlboro light(s). nahihiya pa nga akong bumili kse hindi ko naman talaga alam kung magkano pag tingi. basta ang alam ko lang gusto kong magyosi. bigay ng P5 kay ate, may sukling P3.50…ayus.

hithit-buga ng paulit-ulit. hindi naman talaga ako marunong kasi hindi ko kayang lunukin yung usok. at hindi ko rin kaya na hindi na kita isipin. masyadong malamig at malungkot nung gabi. sabi nila pag patusok raw yung yosi may nag-iisip sa ‘yo. wishful thinking kahit hindi naman lasing.hehe

paubos na yung yosi, sabi ko pagkatapos ititigil ko na rin ang kabaduyang ito…

*to be continued